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apology
04:48
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try to explain why anything happens
and I'll try and understand
'til the last breath we share
our hearts slowly fading
we're written in sand
So I'm sorry for the trouble I've caused
I'm sorry for all of your pain and your losses
I'm sorry for all of the grief that I've caused
remembering one day all of this will end and mean nothing
I know someday you will be gone
but I cannot help that, I cannot keep you from suffering
I cannot keep you from harm
I could never save you, and for that I deserve
nothing
try to explain why anything happens
and I'll ask you this much
where will our blood run if not to the floor
why am I afraid of falling up
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bedroom eyes
04:46
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These four walls do nothing but prevent the rot from spreading
I fear for the day it will end
oh resolution
I can't keep from shaking always anticipating
one more predicament
Oh, I've tried
I have been
I swear I've been learning of, better ways to cope with defeat
but these nights are getting darker and I'm not getting any stronger
it's getting harder and harder to breathe.
It's all coming back to me
the feeling of discontent (and disconnect)
I can hear what you used to say
when I really needed it.
Whatever you decide to do
do not give up, do not give in
don't give up hope, and keep it close
that's all there is
that's all there is
I promise to be there for you
when you are alone
choking on your bedsheets and struggling for warmth
I want you to know
that it worries me
it worries me
when it's hard not think about it
it's hard not to think about anything at all
I hope when I die, I hope I am right
I hope I can stil see your face.
I hope when I die, I hope I go blind
I hope I still can remember your name.
I hope I can remember your name
I hope I can.
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sleepless nights, swollen eyes
wrinkled in bedsheets, still shivering
when was the last time you could dream
when was the last time you spoke to me
of all your love and fear that you have kept inside your heart
the pain you pushed aside for all of us, for everyone you love
I only wish that I could do the same
oh how I wish I could be brave
oh how I wish I could be
oh how I wish I could be brave for you and everyone I love
and all the things that kept us up at night, were things that I could understand
that I could mend
but something takes a hold of what is left and tears it from my grip
and picks away the parts of me
the pieces I could give
I just want to make sense of this, I want to go home
I still think you're beautiful
oh I'll hold my breath when you're gone, and I'll pray to god
and for every counted whisper that escapes from my lungs
I swear to be in love, I promise to be true
for each pathetic whisper that abandons my
tiny withered lungs
I swear to be in love
silence overwhelms these aching walls too fragile to withstand
these countless nights of recollecting the days that you could breathe again
our able bodies reduced to festering wounds tied to the notion that
we're nothing but worthless our flesh cannot alter
we'll all live forever
though one day our hearts will form into ashes
until then their lightness will bleed through the sun
Though one day our hearts will dwindle like two wicker lanterns they will
side by side
though one day our skin it will shed from our limbs and our flesh from the bone
and unto the earth
hand in hand
although we will die and our souls petrify each decision we make they will echo
through time
and the promises we made
oh I swear they won't break
approaching faster than
we could ever hope to have
imagined these moments so precious
we'll cherish as fortunes until they are gone
there is a place for us
where we will rest amongst the stars
tossing fragments of shattered rock
upon the banks of acheron
if you're afraid won't your hands pierce my hands
sink your flesh to my my flesh I don't care if it hurts
and if you're afraid won't you please hold us close
let us give you our warmth you won't suffer alone
and neither will us
when our time comes
in this ephemeral state
we'll be gathered in love
ever constant
ever flowing
ever encompassed
ever expanding
and right now I believe
in night hides our anguish we suffer from sleep
and right now I believe
the shelter we sought for is ensnared in our dreams
and right now I believe
that our bodies will soon be at ease, ever in silence
returning whence we came
to be nothing again
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evening prayer
03:48
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Jesus Christ, why are you shaking?
they've taken off your crown.
you're quieter now.
Jesus Christ, why aren't you sleeping?
you should get some rest.
or at least go to bed.
I will when I'm dead.
Oh, I have been trying to sleep, but my mind keeps me busy
I am aware of my mistakes
I am afraid of what I can't change.
So I pray for the ones that I love, to a God I'm afraid of
I want everything for them
Father, please don't you hurt them
every time I close my eyes
I hope that yours will open
I dread for the day I get used to your absence
So scared of the silence
afraid of the distance
I think you deserve something much more than oblivion
if there is no hell when we die
I promise I'll be everything I can for the rest of my life
if there is no hell when we die
I will take in everything
entrust, I'm so glad that we exist
if only for a moment.
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5. |
coward//vigil
10:08
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bleeding out, calling your name
I won't forget you, I could never
always, but forever feels so thin
forever is the moment we were given
the time that we have left
I will cherish you for all of what you are
for all of what this is
a chance for compassion marked with every breath I take
I felt it trembling through my skin
and though it's rotted through my flesh
I promise for resilience, we were never meant to
hold my hand, no matter how far we sink
and never look away
no matter how far
no matter how far we sink
you were never meant to be
no matter how far
you were never meant to be afraid
no matter the silence, I will be with you wherever you are
though I cannot promise, I'll attempt everything to keep you from harm
until the light takes us
until the last drop of blood spill from your arms
I will be with you
I will be with you wherever you are
wherever you go, I swear I will follow
and if I die before you
I promise to guide you somewhere closer to home
oh, I wish that I knew
I wish I could tell you
where we will finally rest, and if we could ever say
we are safe, we're at ease, we are hope, we are love
I am free
how long will we have to wait, 'til we can finally escape
'til we abandon our bodies left to wallow in decay
and if our hearts can lead to god, why won't our bodies do the same
and if our hearts can lead to anyone, or any sacred place
I hope it's with you
I know that it's hard, and sometimes impossible it seems
but you have to get up
my love, you have to get
and I know that you're in pain, but there is meaning to this suffering
I like to think that life has it's reasonings
god is not a number, in death we are one
if we ever lose the privilege to speak
and our minds never wander out, and rot like the rest of our chemistry
if ever we lose sight of things we sought to be possible
I swear to you we'll meet again inside
of the ossuary
I'm glad we're alive
and I'm glad that we'll die
I'm glad that we me
before it all ends
and I will never forget, I will never forget
the way that you spoke to me
how comforting it was when I had nothing left to give
when it was difficult to breathe
when I was to sick to eat
and I was terrified of sleep
I will remember how terrified you were of me
and how lucky I was to wake up in love
to wake up at all
I'm glad we'll lose sleep
I'm glad we'll lose everything
for in our absence we'll gleam
in our absence we'll
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Wandering aimlessly
What do you hope for in life
and when you die
to look back on this day
and realize
you were everything
you were everything in their eyes
oh, here lies the father, son, and the holy ghost
were buried then
just like the rest of us
we buried them
it's not long before we bury each other,
My Lover.
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hey, my name's Eddie, I go by Raggedy is when I'm crying/screaming with a guitar in front of me.
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